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Monday, July 15, 2013

It's a...

So Friday we went and found out the sex of our little avocado. And let me just tell you. It was one of the best experiences of my whole life.

We got to the mall and found Fetal Studio, checked in, and immediately went back to the room. We decided we wanted to do the package that comes with a DVD, so they started out by getting the DVD recording and then started the ultrasound.

And let me just tell you - seeing that little avocado on the screen - a little person - inside me - was the coolest feeling EVER. They had the CUTEST little button nose, and they were moving all over the place. Super active hands!!

Right before the tech guy went to check what we were having, little M put their hand between their legs - Mr./Mrs. Modesty! It was super cute! But they moved their hand right away and we got a clear shot of our little Princess.

Yep, we are having a girl.

And let me just tell you, I didn't feel the LEAST bit disappointed.

I almost started crying at how much I loved this little girl already. And she's still teeny tiny.

The rest of the ultrasound was amazing. She got the hiccups. Oh I die. I am SO in love. I can't feel it yet, but OH I can't wait until I do!

She kept her little hands up by her face A LOT. I think it's because she's like her mom and is going to like doing Turbo. In Turbo, just like in kickboxing, you gotta keep your hands by your face to protect your face {it helps you engage your core} and she kept both hands right up by her face. We have a shot of both hands up in Turbo position. Seriously, little princess, I just love you.

Jake seemed ok - I was hoping he wouldn't be TOO bummed but he seemed fascinated looking at our little miss on the screen. After we were done, we were both really smiley and he didn't say much as we walked out of the store. We looked in a couple stores nearby but didn't see anything Jake wanted. As we got closer to the doors, I wanted to go look at Fanzz to see if they had any pink BYU baby clothes. No such luck, but we were in a Salt Lake Fanzz. Jake kept being pretty quiet until we got outside and all the sudden he goes, "Great - now we have to pay for a wedding!!" Haha yes, love, we do, but not for 20 ish years so it's ok. We got time to save.

The whole rest of the day, I kept calling her princess. I threw up twice that night and although I felt AWFUL, it was ok. I feel like there is a reason why I am doing this now. I know I was pregnant before, but now that I have seen that there is something that looks like a person in there, someone moving and alive, it makes it seem so much more worth it. It makes being nauseous and gaining weight and puking my guts out 6-7 times a week totally ok.

Saturday, I referred to me and the baby as the princesses. "Princesses want to go to Kneaders for breakfast." "The princesses want to go to a movie today." Jake just smiled at me every time. He calls me princess anyway, so now he gets to have 2 princesses!

We told our parents over the weekend - Jake's family on Saturday and my family Sunday night. Jake recorded both reactions on his GoPro - as soon as we get the recordings on YouTube I will post a link for ya'll to see.

We are pretty sure we already have a name picked out. Kaycee Marie. I fell in love with the name a while ago, probably when Jake & I were dating. We decided while we were dating that we would name our first baby something to do with "Kay" since that was his Grandpa's name that he was very close to and really misses. If it was a boy, we didn't have any concrete names, but I knew a while ago that I liked Kaycee - spelled that way - and I remember asking Jake about it and him saying he liked it. But it feels REALLY weird thinking we already have a name picked out and I'm only 15 weeks pregnant. We don't have to nail the name down yet, obviously, but I think we picked the name for our little princess.

Miss Kaycee, mom loves you so much. According to my app, you can hear me when I talk as of this week, so I talk to you a lot. So far, dad hasn't overheard us talking. He might think it's pretty weird. But I think it's fun getting to talk to you. Saying good morning and good night to you has become a part of my daily routine. I can't wait until I get to add a kiss and snuggle to that routine. I love you, princess!

Final Guesses

So it's Friday, July 12 but this isn't going to get published until Monday July 15 sometime. Today, at 4 PM, we are going to see what our  baby is! And I am SOOOOO excited. My family & Jake's family all thinks we are going to find out what the baby is on July 30. Nope, we are going today. So we are going to surprise them this weekend with colored cake or cupcakes and tell them what we are having.

Seriously, I am dying. SOOO excited!! I promised Jake that no matter what it is, we won't do any decorating or anything until 20 weeks. That was his big hang up with finding out early - he didn't want to have to start doing stuff for the nursery all ready. So I promised - another 5 weeks AND THEN we can start working on the nursery. At least I can LOOK at stuff now haha.
Even though I want it to be a boy, I think it's a girl. I always wanted an older brother growing up, ALWAYS. And for that reason, my ENTIRE life, I have ALWAYS wanted a boy first. But I think it's a girl. AND IF YOU ARE A LITTLE GIRL AND YOU ARE READING THIS SOMEDAY, DAD & I LOVE YOU! We just hoped you'd be a boy. But a girl is great too!

Jake thinks it's a boy.

Jake's mom thinks it's a boy.

My mom & Brynne casually called it a he last time I talked to them. I can't get their final guess though, since they don't know I am doing this today and I don't want to ruin the surprise! But I pointed it out and neither changed their mind to say girl. So I'm taking that as they think it's a boy.

Everyone at work isn't quite decided what they think it is. Lindsey, Faith & Leah think it's a girl. Angie & Justin think it's a boy.

Athina thinks it's a girl, Keeshia thinks it's a boy.

I've had a few customers at work say they think it's a boy. Nicolette guessed that Lindsey was having a girl & I was having a boy. EVERYONE at work thought Lindsey was having a boy and she found out this past Monday she is having a little girl. So Nicolette was right! Maybe she will be right about me having a boy?


 4 o'clock can't come soon enough!! We are going to Fetal Studio's at South Towne Mall in Sandy. And then, I may or may not go buy their first little outfit. Maybe that's how we'll announce it on Facebook? I have no idea on that one yet... But like I said, we are doing either a cake or cupcakes for my family with white frosting and the inside will be pink or blue. I wonder how long it'll take before they catch on to what is happening? Haha. Our nieces are in town right now too, so they will get to find out with the rest of the family! YAY!

Friday, July 12, 2013

A night at Girls Camp

My mom was asked to speak at her Stake Girls Camp this past week! Brynne was asked to speak last year, so it was pretty exciting that someone from the same family got asked to speak again! Brynne & I met at her house at 4:30 on Tuesday and drove up there together. I made it to and from Heber Valley Camp without getting too sick - no throwing up! Yay!!

My mom spoke just after 5:30. Her talk was all the things she wished she could tell her 17 year old self. The camp theme for their stake this year is "Sparkle" and my mom was definitely an appropriate person to have speak!

My mom did a great job speaking!
The 3 of us!
Jeannene & Lauryl were gone on the 4th year hike, so we didn't get to see them which was a HUGE bummer! Lauryl is actually a 4th year, which is why she is on the hike, and Jeannene is a 4th year assigned YCL, so she got to go on the hike too. After my mom's talk, we had dinner with the stake {loaded baked potatoes} and then sat and talked with some of the girls from the ward and some of the leaders, two of which were my Laurel leaders. I sure loved my leaders!!

After we were done eating and talking, we drove up to the ward's campsite and wrote notes to put on Jeannene & Popper's pillows for them to see when they got back from their hike the next day. I can't wait to see them - we are going to try to have dinner together as a family on Sunday! The whole family {minus me and Jake} went to California last week, so I haven't been able to see my family AT ALL lately! I'm so proud of my mom for being asked to speak, for my 2 baby sisters who were on the 4th year hike despite how insanely hard it sounds, and my awesome bestie sister Brynne who chose to take time out of her crazy school/work/married life to go to camp for the night! Yay for girls camp!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Man In The Moon

Last Jake & I spent a good chunk of our day sleeping in. We got out of bed at noon, rushed to get ready and drove to his parents house to spend some time with them. Jake, his dad & his older brother Dustin went for a Razor ride in the canyon with a family friend, Preston. While they were gone, Jake's mom & I went shopping for some house décor stuff {I'll post pictures of that soon!}. Afterwards, we relaxed at the house and waited for the boys to come back. They got home, we talked on the porch and then had some Papa Murphy's pizza together. And just as the night was winding down, Jake's dad showed us this trailer for Glenn Beck's "The Man In The Moon".

Gotta admit, it was way cool. The concept is that there is a man in the moon that has watched man develop since the time of Adam & Eve. It's the story of man, from the moon's perspective. Nothing like that had ever been done before. Pretty cool concept right? So Jake asked when the show was going to be. That night. Like in an hour and a half. And tickets had been sold out for MONTHS.

After watching the trailer, we were all kinda bummed we'd never get the chance to see it - it's a one a time show, and no tickets were available. We all went back to watching TV, relaxing on the couches when we hear Jake's dad calling someone with an ad on KSL, asking to buy their tickets. It took a little sweet talking, but he was able to get 4 VIP, reserved tickets for WAY less than general admission grass seats, let alone how much these tickets should have ACTUALLY cost. The "downside" was that we had to RUSH to get to USANA - in West Valley - because the show started in 45 minutes.

We FLEW up there, parked, walked in and found our seats. They were AWESOME seats - we were SO close to the stage! It had been raining, and most of the seats around us were wet and people were wearing poncho's or garbage bags to keep dry. We had brought blankets and hoodies, but hadn't brought anything water proof. Fortunately, it only drizzled on us!

View of the stage during the pre-show
Had to take a couple pictures with my sexy hubby!
He's so fun. I just love him!
We sat in Suite 9 - seriously they were AMAZING seats. Thanks Dad!!
Mom & Dad before the show started
When they were ready to start around 9:30, they had Ken Hutcherson say the opening prayer. He is a former Dallas Cowboy's football player, currently a reverend and has stage 4 cancer. He said an awesome, slightly different, prayer and then we got ready for the national anthem.

Picture of Ken Hutcherson
The national anthem presentation was one of the coolest things I have EVER seen in my life. They had two men dresses in military blues UPSIDE DOWN above the moon unfold the flag and hang it...
 
Saluting each other before they released the flag
They hung the flag upside down

They lowered the flag down to two men at stage level

And then they pulled the flag back to the top, and folded it back up - all while being upside down! It was so cool! They didn't drop the flag, they folded it perfectly, and then turned and "walked" to the edge of stage before flipping right side up and being lowered to the stage.

Jake's dad explained to us that the flag upside down symbolizes that they are in distress. Kinda fitting for how things are going in our country right now... Just sayin'.

Glenn Beck came out to talk before the show
And then we watched the show! It was 90 minutes long and was SUPER cool. Because of the weather we have been having, the holiday and such, the crew had not been able to have a full dress rehearsal yet. Not once! And the show went pretty dang awesome! Jake & I only saw one flaw, but it was easily covered and didn't make a big difference. The man in the moon talked about Adam & Eve, Noah, the building of the tower in Babylon {at least I think that's the story he was referring to}, Lincoln, the slaves and the Civil War, World War II, Hitler, and the atomic bomb in Hiroshima. The story was based off of a book that Glenn Beck found in a library in Chicago {?}. That book must have been written a while ago, it "ended" after the Hiroshima bombing. That part was really sad. Glenn Beck came out after that and talked about how he had decided to "add" to the book, since that was 70 ish years ago and time has passed since then. It showed a press conference I haven't ever heard with President Kennedy in it. The moon talked about how he didn't know how we were going to end, because we can still choose what happens from here.

It honestly was very cool. A lot of political undertones, for sure, but it also had a lot of spiritual meaning to it too. The moon, when he wanted to make the people stop hurting each other, would always ask the "great light" {the sun} what they should do, and "the sun" always answered in ways that were very much like what Heavenly Father has told us - that we have our agency, and he won't take that away, but that the "beasts" {that's us} could have negative consequences for forgetting to acknowledge the "great light". Seriously, it was an awesome show.

Afterwards, we walked back to the car VERY slowly since we knew we wouldn't be getting out anytime soon - there were SOO many people there and the parking lot was a zoo. We talked in the car for a while and waited until the parking lot thinned out and then we drove home. I was starting to not feel so great, probably because we had done a lot that day {that's usually when I feel sick - after a day of LOTS of things going on} so I laid on Jake's lap and fell asleep. I woke up just as we got back to Jake's parents house right after 1:30 AM. Yeah, that is SUPER late for us haha. We gathered up our stuff and drove home and got there just before 2. And we slept ALL day the next day - I felt SO nauseous all day Sunday as a result of our adventurous Saturday, but it was a really neat experience and I am SO glad we were able to go!

14 weeks - a navel orange

Last Friday, I officially hit 2nd Trimester! And supposedly, that comes hand in hand with more energy & less nausea. So far, that is not the case haha. But it's only been a few days - maybe I need to give it a little time first?

Nausea is coming back, almost like how it was before I started taking my B6 + Unisom combo. But then I eat and feel better, almost every single time. And that's so weird to me! I don't like needing to eat every single time I feel gross, because it happens quite a bit haha. I'm having a hard time with the fact that my pant size is changing so much. My Old Navy stuff came today and YEAH NO that stuff does NOT fit. AWESOME! NOT. I've heard maternity sizes are weird - let's go with THAT as why my stuff doesn't fit. I am planning on going to look at some clothes IN PERSON soon - online sizing is just not gonna work this pregnancy since I have NO idea what size I am.

Ok enough whining. Onto the baby!

So I am 14 weeks and 5 days as of today. That's kinda crazy that I am 2 days from 15 weeks. For some reason, that sounds kinda far along to me. But 14? Nope that doesn't sound far along at all haha. The baby is the size of a navel orange this week. They're getting so big!! I feel like my tummy is getting tighter, rather than just bloat-ey. I'm starting to see a VERY small little bump too! WOOT!

I had my first dream about the baby on Monday, while I was taking my nap after I threw up. And I dreamt it was a boy. I remember in my dream that he didn't have any hair {just like my Jake} and was so cute and NOT chubby. I love not chubby babies. I think that was my subconscious though - as I have said, and Jake has said, we both kinda hope it's a boy. And I was so happy after my dream. But today, I totally feel like it's a girl and like we need to wrap our heads around that haha. Guess we'll find out - 18 week appointment with the doctor to find out what we are having is set for July 30. Only 20 more days!

Screenshot of my app the day I hit 2nd Trimester! Woot!
It's very reassuring to remind myself this pregnancy will NOT last forever. And there will be a wonderful little reward for us at the end. I have a few friends who have recently had babies and they posted their birth stories on their blogs. Seeing how hard it is, and then the IMMEDIATE gratification of seeing your baby for the first time, brings me to tears every single time. I know I can do this. And I know it will be worth it. And I am SO excited to be a mom!

Monday, July 8, 2013

Tender Mercies

So this post is from my phone, so it'll be pretty short but I have just had one too many good things today to not write them down, so here goes a short post.

I started my new shift today. Getting off at 2 was a heaven send. And this shift wasn't available a few months ago. I feel really blessed that it opened when it did, right when I needed it. I feel really blessed that we can afford for me to lose the pay of working full time, losing my insurance benefits, losing PTO - thanks to Jake's job. Just in case I don't talk about it enough, I am SOOOOO grateful for Jake's job and all that it provides for us. 

I'm grateful that in a few months, I will be able to quit my job and be a stay home mom. That's an amazing blessing that not every women gets, especially with their first baby, but I do. And I'm so grateful for that, for Jake's job, for the home we bought and the mortgage we have that we can afford, for the cars we can afford to drive because we are still debt free. I'm so grateful. 

I'm grateful for the weird weather today. After I got off work, I went to the grocery store and bought a few things and picked up Jake's dry cleaning and as I drove home I realized I needed to throw up. I made it to a parking lot {tender mercy - grateful I didn't throw up all over myself} and after I was finished, it started POURING. Like torrential down pour, flash flood kinda rain. But not until AFTER I threw up and was back in my dry car. Tender mercy. 

I had the chance to immediately come home, get in pajamas and sleep off my nausea thanks to my new schedule. And then, I had the energy I needed to make dinner - a good dinner {lasagna from scratch} and then do the dishes. My energy is better than it was, that's for sure. Huge tender mercy. 

I'm just so grateful for where I'm at in life, for how my life is panning out. I'm very blessed. 

Friday, July 5, 2013

5 years

I missed a pretty big "milestone" in my relationship with Jake earlier this week, one that I NEVER forget. Goes to show my pregnancy brain haha. On July 2, it was our 5 year anniversary of being friends on Facebook! I don't know if I have ever posted how we met, so bare with me while I tell ya'll a story...

I was still pretty new to Facebook - it'd been about 3 months since I started my account. And I was OBSESSED with having lots of "friends". Even if it meant that I added people as friends that I didn't even really know. Like people from high school - I added any name that was even remotely familiar. In hind sight, it's a good thing I did.

I had just started my new job at eBay - it was literally my 3rd day on the job. The break rooms at eBay have computers with Internet access, so while on break I jumped on Facebook to see if I had any notifications. While I was on there, I noticed on the right hand side of the screen that Facebook had a few "friend recommendations" for me - people that Facebook figured I might know. I looked at a few of them, and I knew most of them, so I started adding people. And then, there was this profile for a guy named Jake McClellan.

Jake's profile picture the day I added him as a friend
His profile picture was pretty dang cute.

And he had the most amazing blue eyes {I looked through a few of his pictures and that's the thing that kept jumping out at me}.

We had 40 ish friends in common, hence why Facebook figured we knew each other.

And I had NO idea who he was.

And I added him as a friend. Why not, right?

I logged off the computer, went back to work, and during my lunch break 2 hours later got back on Facebook. Seriously people, I was SO obsessed with Facebook. And I had a notification and a new message. Notification let me know that Jake had accepted my friend request. Message was from Jake.

He just sent me a real casual "hey whats up" kinda message. So I messaged back that I was at work. He immediately wrote back, and we emailed back and forth the rest of my lunch. Right at the end of my lunch, I sent him a message {even though it was his turn to write back - GASP} and told him I had to get back to work, but he could text me if he wanted. I gave him my number and logged off the computer.

15 minutes later, I got my first text from my husband.

We text back and forth the rest of the day and pretty late into the night before I fell asleep. We text most of the next day, even though I was supposed to be training at work. And most of the next night. I had a long weekend that weekend - Friday was the 4th of July and we got the day off. My friends and I all had season passes to Lagoon, so we spent the day at Lagoon. I left my phone in the car because I knew I wouldn't want it to get wet. And I kept hoping that when I got to the car, there'd be a text from the cute guy who lived in Lehi. At lunch, we went back to the cars to eat the picnic lunch we had brought in coolers and sure enough - he had text me. We text while I was eating and then I went back in the park, hoping again that there'd be a text waiting for me when I got back to my car. At the end of the day, I reached for my phone first thing once we were in the car and sure enough - he had text me again. He wanted to see if I wanted to get together that night and do something during the fireworks?

Unfortunately, I already had plans to go with that same group of friends to Stadium of Fire. He and I text the ENTIRE time I was at Stadium of Fire, and late that night too. Since he was pretty bummed we weren't able to hang out that night, he asked if maybe we could hang out on Saturday? I told him we were going to Lagoon again but that I could maybe do something that night. Sure enough, after we got back from Lagoon on Saturday, July 5th, he asked again {he did NOT give up} so I agreed to meet up and go to a movie.

I was too chicken to go just the two of us - what if this guy is a creeper or something? I mean, we met on the internet! And yeah, some of the friends he knows I know too, but still! I talked my friends into going to the movies that night, and told him he could meet us there because I was NOT going to tell him where I lived. I got to the theater first and he text me when he got there, so I walked out to meet him since my friends were all inside.

He had the cutest striped polo on, freshly shaved, spiked hair and smelled UH-mazing.

I, on the other hand, was in sweats. In July. Yeah don't know what I was thinking. Hair was in a pony tail. Zero make up on. And I was horrified. This guy is actually REALLY cute. He had been SOO nice while we were texting, so that translated in my mind that he must be a geek or have some weird growth or something - he couldn't be a nice guy AND be cute! But oh, he was.

We went and saw Get Smart with my friends. He told me later he had wanted to try to hold my hand but was too scared I'd freak out. After the movie, my friends, me & Jake went to iHop for dessert and some light dinner since it was around 11 o'clock. Afterwards, my friends all headed back to hang out at someone's house. I had drove separate, in case I wanted to hang out with Jake afterwards, and I did, so everybody left the two of us at the theater parking lot.

We sat in his GMC Jimmy with the windows rolled down talking for 2 or 3 hours. He was WAY past curfew and got in huge trouble, but he still says it was worth it. I think we hugged at the end of the night, but I remember that I didn't kiss him. My friend Suzie was CONVINCED I'd kiss him on the first date, so I had to prove her wrong.

We texted the whole drive home and until we fell asleep. The next day was Sunday and after I got home from church, I took a shower. And I cut my leg WAY bad. I went over to my parents house right afterwards to have my mom look at it and was hanging out over there when he asked if we could hang out again. Like I said, I went to my parents RIGHT after I cut myself. Wet hair had dried SUPER unattractively, still had no make up on, and was in pajamas. Unmatching, not cute ones.

I told him I couldn't come over because I wasn't ready and he said he didn't care. Well yeah but I care. And he somehow sweet talked me into coming over, even though I looked like a train wreck. I changed into some of my mom's lounge pants that were cuter than the ones I had on and matched my t shirt a little better and drove to his parents house {he lived in their basement apartment}. He met me at the door and introduced me to his mom. AWESOME first impression right there haha. I remember she was Swiffer mopping the kitchen floor. They had the CLEANEST house I had ever seen. And it smelled SOOOO good.

He and I went downstairs to his bachelor pad and watched Anchor Man and talked. Pretty soon he kinda hinted I should go since he had to get up early to go to work. I was pretty impressed that his job was that important to him that he wanted to make sure he had enough sleep for it. He walked me to my car, and under the street light in his parents driveway on July 6, he kissed me for the first time.

I'm forever grateful to Facebook for setting us up, and for Jake never giving up on me, even though he had to REALLY convince me to go on that first date, then to continue to date him. I have so many regrets about our first month that we knew each other - I wish I had realized from the very beginning how amazing of a guy he was. But he never gave up on me and gave me multiple chances to realize that he really was a good catch, that I really should try dating a nice guy and see what happens.

His first profile picture with the two of us - right after we officially started dating, we went to Hogle Zoo together
His current Facebook picture
So glad I did - he is the NICEST nice guy ever. He is the BEST husband & friend I could ever ask for. Happy 5 years of our first date, love. You're the greatest thing that ever happened to me!