Life altering...

So I am going to start this post by saying that today is May 13, 2013. And you are reading this somewhere around June 16, 2013. And if you are reading this, you may or may not have seen on Facebook that Jake & I are pregnant! Yes, you read that right.

But because we don't want to tell too many people {just in case}, I am not posting this until Father's Day, the day we plan to announce. But I have WAY too many emotions going on to not write them down, and I suck at writing in my paper journal. So they are going on the blog, and I just won't let anyone see them for another 6 weeks!

This post is all about how I found out we were pregnant. So let's start at "the beginning".

Last Sunday, May 5, Jake had a Bishop interview in the morning. He was supposed to be receiving his Temple Recommend, or so we thought. We were like 95% sure, we had talked to the Bishop and still felt like he was going to come out of the interview with his living ordinance recommend so that we could go get sealed. He went to his interview without me and came home a few minutes later, with no recommend.

It was Fast Sunday, and I had been debating on if I wanted to fast ANYWAY - 1 o'clock church just kills me on Fast Sunday haha. As soon as I heard he didn't get it, I went crazy eating everything I could find to try to make myself feel better. Didn't help, of course. I should have known that. And I was MAD. Like MAD MAD. Just kept trying to get me to calm down and it was no use - I was SUPER mad. I know LOTS of people who got their recommends MUCH faster - what on earth are we waiting for?! Jake is worthy for a baptismal recommend, so why can't he have his living ordinance one already?!

Seriously, to say I was a wreck is an understatement. I was SO upset. I told Jake that if I didn't know it would make things worse, I'd say we should cut church for the day. He was calm and just kept saying we should go. Goes to show how much he has changed - he would have jumped at the chance to sluff 6 months ago!

I finally just decided I would ignore the Bishop at all costs and just suck it up and go. We walked in and there were NO seats on the benches, at all. And we weren't late. That should have been my first inclination that there were baby blessings, but I didn't pick up on it until Jake mentioned that one of the counselors in the Young Men's presidency was blessing his baby today. They announced over the pulpit that there were going to be 2 baby blessings. No big thing.

Or so I thought.

RIGHT before they blessed the first baby, I said a quick prayer that my heart would be softened enough to get through church and actually feel the Spirit, because I knew it would help me feel better. And then they started the blessing. And I can't remember what they said. All I remember is I was sobbing. Like shoulder shaking sobbing. I reached in my bag and pulled out a handkerchief I keep in there from my Grandpa's funeral and just lost it. As soon as the first blessing was done, I snuck out {after getting a crazy eyed expression from Jake at my tears} and went in the bathroom. And I just collapsed and was crying as quietly as I could in case anyone came in.

I had a VERY strong feeling a month or so ago that we would get pregnant after we got sealed, thanks to a paragraph in my patriarchal blessing. And after reading that, I felt so much better. We just needed to get sealed, and the baby would come. Well, sealing was supposed to be coming and no recommend. And I was just devastated. Didn't the Bishop know my children are waiting for that piece of paper?!

I came out of the stall and was HORRIFIED at what I looked like. My eyes were almost swollen shut{ok not quite but it was bad} and they were BLOODSHOT. And I had NO make up on anymore. I was trying to clean my face off and one of my Young Women came in the bathroom. Awesome. She was like "yeah we need Kleenex too" and walked out. Awesome - someone is going to know now. I composed myself as best I could and went and sat next to Jake. He took one look at me and said "you need to go home".

We quietly argued for a few minutes about whether or not I should stay and ultimately decided I should go. I was sitting behind my good friend Janaca, who is the 2nd Counselor in the YW's, so I asked her if she would cover for me because I needed to go. As soon as we were done taking the Sacrament, we left to go home.

Jake got me situated on the couch, where I continued to cry and moan and whoa is me for a while. And then he went back to church. Without me. Seriously people, Jake is a different person.

While he was gone I was texting my mom and sister and being incredibly whiny about how we were never going to get sealed. They were both trying to encourage me but it wasn't working. Things like trusting in the Lord and on His timeframe. Well, I have 2 righteous desires and I am not getting either of them. That's dumb. Later that night, right before I went to bed, I was walking past the laundry room and I just got this feeling like "so what if My timeframe is only off of yours by a few weeks? What if you're pregnant right now?"

I immediately pulled out my phone and looked to see when my period was supposed to start. That day. So not late. Totally wrote the feeling off.

Tuesday, I still hadn't started. I mentioned it to Jake and we decided I should take a test. When I got off work {I worked a short day} I went to Smith's and bought a test. And took it in the Smith's bathroom. Negative. Well there goes that feeling from Sunday.

By Thursday I still hadn't started. I mentioned it to a friend at work and she suggested to take one Saturday or Sunday if I still hadn't started. I knew I couldn't wait that long, so I stopped at Wal-Mart and bought one Thursday night. I got everything ready so I could take it first thing Friday morning, since your hormone levels are stronger in the morning and you have a better chance of a positive.

Friday morning I woke up {5 days late} and took the test. I walked out of the room and started getting ready for the day, and then came back in when the timer went off. And it was positive.

Yeah, it was positive.

Oh. My. Gosh.

I walked out of the room, and then walked back in again. And walked out again. And walked in again. And then I looked in the bathroom mirror and just starting bawling. And I went back in our bedroom and fell down on the side of the bed and started saying a prayer of gratitude. This really happened. I am really pregnant.

But maybe the test was wrong. Maybe I got a false positive.

So I went in the kitchen and got a HUGE drink of water and drank it as fast as I could, refilled it, and drank it again. And then I finished getting ready for work while I waited.

And I took a second test. And it was positive.

Oh my gosh. FREAK OUT MODE!!!!

I text Jake and asked him when he was planning on coming home, or if he was going golfing right after work. Plan was to go golfing right after. Shoot!! I thought I was going to die waiting to tell him. It almost slipped through text but I stood firm and I knew I wanted to see his face when I told him.

I went to Wal-Mart before work and started looking for some way to tell him that was kinda creative. I found a really cute onesie that says "Crib $350 Diapers $14.95 Pacifier $2.99 Daddy's expression when changing my diaper... Priceless!" and I found some cute bibs for my mom & Jake's mom that say different things about being a grandma. I also got some Mother's Day cards and took everything home and hid it in my car, except for the onesie - I put that in my purse.

He came to take me to lunch and the plan was to go to Kneaders. We walked out the doors and he opened the truck door for me, and then walked around the truck to get in on the drivers side. I hurried and pulled the onesie out of my purse and put it on his seat. He opened the door and just stared at it. And then the reaction went something like this...

"Are you serious?"
"Yes."
"You took the test without me?"
"Yes, I took it before you went golfing, before I called and asked you to come home."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes" {showed him the test picture}
"Holy sh** you're really pregnant?"
"Yes - be excited!!"
"I can't breathe right now!"

Trying not to throw up haha

Trying to smile haha

Our family is getting an addition!!

We went to Kneaders for lunch and he didn't eat anything. At all. He just kept staring at me and saying the due date {January 3rd} over and over again. He hadn't slept all day and was pretty tired, so he decided to go home and lay down but he knew he wouldn't be able to get any sleep because his mind was working in overdrive. It's Jake - that's a perfectly normal reaction for Jake haha. Right before he left to go home, he told me "I'm excited - I really am. Just scared and caught off guard." I know babe, and I am scared too.

The rest of the day at work was normal, just trying hard to not slip and tell anyone. I have been training to temporarily replace Lindsey, our main new accounts rep, who is also pregnant, so that I could cover her while she is on maternity leave. Well, we will only have a month where I am here and she isn't. After that, we are both gone. So that plan won't work after all haha.

I told the girls at work today {May 13}. I had wanted to wait until next Thursday {the 24} because that's the day of my 8 week appointment with a certified Nurse Midwife in Orem, but I couldn't keep it in anymore.

I am scared that something is going to happen - that I am going to have a miscarriage, or that I am not really pregnant, or something. Especially since I don't feel sick. I can kinda feel nausea, or something, sometimes but if I eat a little something it goes away. Just trying to make sure that I am not reaching for cookies every time that hits haha.

I'm just a bundle of nerves. Jake and I were talking last night about how I need to calm down and relax a little. Easier said then done haha. I'm a worrier by nature, but if I am like this for 33 weeks we'll all go nuts. Gotta relax and just trust the Lord and His plan for me. And pray, hard, that I will get to keep this baby.

Big News

I have an announcement to make.

This past Sunday, my AMAZING WONDERFUL AWESOME husband got his living ordinance Temple Recommend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, that means Jake & I are getting sealed like PRONTO!!!

His interview with the stake is this weekend {Sunday} and then next Saturday, he is receiving his endowment at Provo Temple. The following Saturday, Clint & Macy will be sealed, and then we are thinking we'll get sealed the NEXT Saturday. So lots of Saturday temple trips in June! That would put our sealing date as June 29. No special date, no significance in our lives. Except for the fact that becomes the day that he is mine FOREVER!!!

I'll keep you posted on how it goes!

Youth Conference

Our ward had Youth Conference a few weeks ago and I am JUST NOW getting around to blogging about it - whoops. I have a few pictures that I took with my phone of our group, but I didn't take many of other people, so use your imagination for that part.

Our theme this year is to "Stand in Holy Places." Friday afternoon, we met up at the pool in our neighborhood and loaded into cars to drive to Oquirrh Mountain Temple to do Baptisms for the Dead. A few people in the ward did some family history and sent us with names of family members we could do the work for. We had over 200 names submitted!!! Unfortunately, there weren't enough youth to do all the names, but we got nearly 90 names baptized and confirmed that day. It was wonderful.

And that was my first time in THAT temple with Jake. He was so tired from working the night before and then not getting any sleep before we all met up, but he was a trooper and didn't whine or anything.

After we were finished at the temple, Jake & the Bishop went to Domino's to go get pizza for everyone and we all met up at a park. We had nearly 20 youth that did baptisms, plus 10 or so more that came afterwards, so that meant a TON of pizza. We also had salad and brownies to go with it that the Bishop's wife brought us all. It was really yummy!

After we were finished eating and cleaned up at the park, we all piled back into the cars and drove to the hotel in downtown Salt Lake where we were going to be staying for the night. Only once we got to the hotel did I realize that Jake left to go home from the park {I thought he was going home a little later} so I didn't get the chance to say good night to him. I felt AWFUL!! But being the awesome husband he is, he told me not to worry about it and to have fun and then he went to sleep.

After we got all checked in at the hotel, we all changed out of our church clothes into either comfy clothes or swimming suits to swim in the hotel indoor pool. After about an hour, we all got in comfy clothes and met up in the conference room in the hotel. Picture this: 30 ish youth, 10 ish leaders, all sprawled throughout the room wearing pajamas, with about 15 GIGANTIC bags of popcorn, a box of granola bars, a HUGE bag of Swedish Fish and a HUGE bag of M&M's. So there is food absolutely EVERYWHERE with kids walking all over trying to get a handful of whatever candy they wanted. We turned on the Joseph Smith movie and for the first  few minutes, it looked like we might be "shushing" kids for the next 90 minutes, but there came a point in the movie where suddenly the Spirit just took over and everyone was staying still and listening and watching the movie.

When the movie was over, there was a good minute or so that no one moved. You could have heard a pin drop. And it was amazing. To think that the Spirit could be felt THAT strongly, in a HOTEL conference room, with a whole bunch of TEENAGERS?! I felt so lucky that I get to work with these amazing kids. The Bishop talked with us about how Joseph Smith had to create Holy Places, and how we could do the same when we are in situations when we can't be in the Temple or at church.

After the movie, we all went to our rooms for the night. For the most part, everyone stayed in their room and we didn't have any drama. I got to room with Laura Barlow, who was also my "partner" for the next days events and I was SOOO excited about that! She used to be my Visiting Teacher and I just love her. We stayed up talking later then we should have, but finally fell asleep.

The next morning, we all met downstairs and had breakfast together and everyone came down in their "team shirts". And Jake was back!! YAY!! Laura & I knew that her daughter Ella was going to be in our group, and she came down in a yellow shirt, so we knew that anyone in a yellow shirt was with us. Everyone else had to wait to see who their leaders were. Lucky us! We all finished eating, checked out and piled in the cars to meet at the base of Ensign Peak for our first activity.

Our group!! Ethan Bigler, Ella Barlow, Kayla Baggerly, Emily Bowers & Ethan Jessop. We called ourselves the Photographic Moisturizers because we were passing around my lotion and we took TONS of pictures with Laura's camera

That wasn't the hardest hike I've ever done by any means, but that was much harder than I thought it was going to be, especially since I do workout. Yeah I was like dying, sucking for air haha. We all made it to the top, and looked at the view for a little bit before Bishop gave a spiritual thought about how Brigham Young saw this peak in a dream and knew that when he saw it, it would mean they'd made it to the right valley. He also hiked to the top when he was sick. Yeah, that'll humble ya a little bit - an old Prophet hiked this hill SICK? And I'm 25 and can barely do it? Dang haha. We also learned that the early pioneers performed temple work at the top of Ensign Peak until the temple was finished. I thought that was AWESOME!

 

Beautiful view

Monument at the top

Group shot!

Funny picture. Of course!

After we had climbed down the mountain back to the base, everyone had a chance to write in their journals and the leaders got the packets for our "Amazing Race". As soon as we all got the go ahead, we climbed into our car and opened the first task. We needed to go to the Church History Museum and find some different items, including a watch that belonged to John Taylor, a wedding dress, where the Pioneers slept while crossing the ocean, etc.

 

We got to the Church History Museum a few minutes before it opened, so we walked across the street to Temple Square and took some pictures of the gorgeous flowers and had each of the youth take a few minutes to write in their journals a question they were needing guidance from the Lord on that they could seek an answer to while at Youth Conference. That was totally Laura's idea - AWESOME right?!

 

 

 

And then we got to go in the History Museum. We found our items pretty quick and were able to get out and onto our next site pretty quick.



The wedding dress

Ella & Ethan B pointing to the watch while Kayla & Ethan J point at Joseph & Hyrum's death masks

Standing at the base of Angel Moroni!

Next on the list was the Conference Center. And this was one of the places I was MOST excited about! I LOVE going to the Conference Center, and our task was that we "had" to have a tour. Twist my arm ;)

The tour was amazing. Even thought I've done it before, I still learn new things every time. I love getting to be somewhere that the apostles are when they speak to us. The Spirit is so strong there. And the tour guide was AWESOME!

This picture doesn't do these paintings justice. They were SOO life like!

On the roof of the Conference Center

After we were finished at the Conference Center, we headed over to the Salt Lake cemetery. We found the graves of 4 Prophets and read a short story about them at each site. The pictures aren't the best, but it was really neat. And they have maps to help you find each grave, so it's a LOT easier than I thought it was going to be!

Ella was having fun, I promise!

Gorgeous red tree in the cemetery

After the cemetery, we all met up at Brigham Young park in Salt Lake. I hadn't ever been there before, but I have driven past it hundreds of times. It's at the corner of North Temple and East Temple {?} and there were delicious Smith's subs, chips, fruit and cookies waiting for us there. After we were done eating, we had a stick pulling contest like in the Joseph Smith movie. Jake did AWESOME against the youth - I was SOO proud of him. He totally kicked my butt, no surprise there.

Kyson while stick pulling with his mom Laura

Chris Trainor & Travis Wengreen going at it

Chris won haha. Travis held his own against the Young Men though!!

Jake & Damian going at it!

And then it was back to our "Amazing Race"! Our next destination was the North Visitor's Center on Temple Square. We went downstairs and watched the Prophet and 3 apostles of our choosing bear their testimonies on a video monitor. Seriously, amazing experience. And then we went upstairs to look at the Christus statue, even though it wasn't part of our task. The youth wanted to go up there. They weren't so focused on hurrying that they wanted to just move on. I was so impressed!!

Not the best shot, but this is where you can hear each apostle's testimony. SO neat!

Getting comfy while we listened to each testimony

These kids are amazing!

The next stop was at the South Visitor's Center. We watched a few movies about the Prophet, families & temple work. And Ella got the assignment to sit in every chair in the building. That was REALLY funny watching her sit and stand super fast so that she could sit in as many chairs as possible as fast as she could.

Next was the Joseph Smith Memorial Building. We needed to take 4 different pictures - 1 by Legacy Theater, 1 near the Roof Restaurant with the Temple in the background, 1 by the Joseph Smith Statue and 1 outside making funny faces.

Funny faces outside the Joseph Smith Memorial Building

Next stop was the Family History Center, which happens to be in the Joseph Smith Memorial Building so we were close already! We needed to find the name of an ancestor who needs temple work done. Ella & Laura found someone in their family line who needs to be sealed! WOOT!!

And then, rather than going to our final task, the kids wanted to stay there and keep looking for ancestors. Yes, the youth ASKED to continue doing Family History. Seriously, we have AMAZING youth in our ward!!!

So we missed the stop of going to the Salt Lake Temple and identifying all the symbols outside the temple, but we got to teach the youth about the Family History site so it all worked out. We all met up on Temple Square near the North Visitor's Center and carpooled home to the Stake Center. When we got there, we were greeted with the CUTEST décor EVER!! Seriously, the Bishop's wife did an AMAZING job coordinating everything for this activity!!

Adorable décor with all the colors we had, with our detour/road block papers used as centerpieces

 

 

 

 

 

And then the Relief Society President came with Lasagna. MMMMMMM. So we all had Lasagna with garlic bread, salad & cake. It was so yummy!! And then the youth all were awesome and helped take stuff down and we got the cultural hall looking beautiful in no time flat!

It was a wonderful weekend. I am so grateful for the chance I had to go, and that I get to work with these amazing kids each week. And I am grateful that Jake gets to work with them as well, and that he also got to go, even though he is the Secretary.

And to top it all off, I was asked to speak in Sacrament Meeting this past Sunday on my experiences there. I spoke with Ethan Bigler {who was in my group}, Andrew Trainor, McKell Jones & Hannah James {one of my Mia Maids}. Travis Wengreen also spoke as the "rep" for the Young Men - Jake was grateful he wasn't asked to speak haha. Sacrament Meeting went AWESOME - once again, I was so impressed at how well the youth did and the parts that spoke to them the most. I love my calling!!

No More

Last week I decided I wanted to take my extensions out - made it a whole 4 months haha. I love them, but they are expensive, and I feel like I have to be SOOO careful with them or they'll come out. And I realize they aren't as expensive as they could be but still - $60 or $70 every month adds up. And I know some people spend that much on getting their hair colored. I don't. So I decided to take them out to save some money!

The last time I really did my hair curly - gonna miss those long locks



I did it straight or up everyday after, since I knew they were coming out and didn't want to spend tons of time on it everyday

My amazing hair girl Kariann wasn't available to get me in for a little while, so I had my neighbor Betsey take them out for me. She did an awesome job getting them out without pulling my real hair out, and got all the hair glue out, and then did a great job shaping my hair since I haven't had a real hair cut in a while!



In the car leaving Betsey's

On the couch the next day

So far I really like my hair. I totally miss my long hair, but I can get ready SOOOOO much faster now. Blowing my hair dry takes less than 3 minutes. Straightening and teasing is over in less than 7. So I can do my hair in less than 10 minutes. Took me that long to dry it before! And I can run my fingers through my hair and in the shower and not be worried about pulling anything out! And Jake has been touching my hair again, which I really missed. At the same time it's annoying when I get my hair just right and he pulls it out but oh well. I'll take it! Hopefully it grows quick now that I'm on prenatals and I can have my same length of hair but naturally soon!!

Updated Crazy Cool

It occurred to me the other day that I don't really have any goals that I am working on. Which would explain why I am totally treading water and not really accomplishing much. So time to update my goals and post my newest 10 Crazy Cool things!

If you haven't read a Crazy Cool post before, it's something like this: Chalene Johnson, my mentor and hero {creator of all things Turbo!} asks that you write a list of 10 things you want to accomplish, from scratch, and you write them in the present tense, like they already happened. And these are things that would be like STELLER and AMAZING if they happened within a year. So, with that preface, here we go:

1. I am sealed to my husband.
2. I am pregnant.
3. I weigh 152 pounds {100 pound loss from when I started last year, 140 pound total loss}
4. I have quit my job so I can stay home and be a mom and wife 
5. We have $13,500 in our Emergency Fund.
6. Jake & I have performed an endowment session together at all Utah & Salt Lake County Temples {Provo, Timp, Draper, Jordan River, Oquirrh, Salt Lake & Bountiful} 
7. I have crossed the finish line of a half marathon race while pregnant 
8. I have received my Young Women's medallion 
9. We are still debt free {except our mortgage} 
10. I gave birth the all natural way! 

Some of these are time consuming, some I don't have a lot of control over. But these are all things that'd be AMAZING to have happen in the next 12 months, and that's the point of these goals. I'll keep you posted on our progress as we go! 

Motivational Monday: My best weekend yet!

Ok I had an AMAZING health weekend! Like, one of the best weekends I have ever had as far as "healthy" weekends go! Friday night I had my Boston 5K and then had a protein bar, veggies and crackers for dinner. Counted out my portions. Had an awesome calorie deficit for the day.

Then I went to my girls night with Suzie & Calli and we had SO much fun. We watched "Vampires Suck". Hilarious movie. And they had pie and I had NONE. BAM - GO ME!!

Pajama's are required at girls night!

Saturday, I woke up and got dressed and went straight downstairs to go lift weights. I did ChaLean Extreme Burn Circuit 3 and was shaking by the end. Then I had a banana & a protein bar and went to go visit one of my neighborhood bestie's Athina. And then, I went for a 6 mile jog in preparation for my half coming up. Other than on the treadmill in St George, this was my first time running since the day I ran my last half marathon back in October!!!

I wanted to drive somewhere and run home, rather than make a loop or to run to a point and then run back. For some reason, actually GOING somewhere makes it more fun for me. I just happened to choose a bad route. I started almost in City Center in Eagle Mountain and then ran to the highway and along it back to the Ranches. Once I got to Maverik, I would have done 6 miles and I could walk home from there.

Getting out of City Center sucked. It's flat. It's brown. It's ugly. There's no landmarks. So I just felt like I was running and getting NOWHERE. There wasn't any "ok run to the end of that street and then you can walk" because there are NO landmarks! And there was no shoulder so I either ran in the road or on gravel. Seriously, BAD route. I won't run there ever again haha. I walked more of it than I wanted to. But once I got to the highway it went much better. I was able to run the majority of the highway part and I was proud of that.

I read on another healthy blog that you should train for runs with a heart rate monitor. And even though you want to go a certain pace, you train at the optimal heart rate level and as you get fitter, you can run faster to stay at that heart race level. So I tried it and it worked pretty well! I was totally able to go at a good pace for me while still getting in a good workout. And that helped me mentally - because I was PROUD of how long I could jog at that pace.

With the warm up and the cool down walk, it was like 7.3 miles. So my time sucked but right now I am not too focused on time. Just want to get my lungs and legs ready for this run since I haven't been as consistent with my workouts the last month.

I was SOOO excited to see my house haha - that meant my run was done!

After my run, I drank about a gallon of water and then made an egg sandwich with mandarin oranges on the side. And half hour later was shaking still from hunger, so I had some tuna with hummus & crackers. Even though I burned over 1000 calories in my run and over 200 in my lift, I didn't want to ruin all that hard work and eat a ton of junk! After my second lunch I felt more stable. I did a quick stretch and then rested my muscles for a few hours before we ran some errands and then came home to eat Cafe Rio on the couch while we watched Motocross.

And I said before - if I work out on Saturday I can have Ice Cream. Well, I worked out. And it was Saturday. So I got me some ice cream.

Arctic Zero Ice Cream - 150 calories for the whole pint!

Sunday I did AMAZING on my calories. I ended up going over by a few, but it was on a salad and extra asparagus with dinner. I knew I was starving, and I knew I needed to eat something else or I would eat the pantry, so I added a light salad to my dinner and it totally fixed it - I was pretty close to full by the end of my dinner! And I didn't eat sugar afterwards - no ice cream, no Hershey's kisses, no brownies, nothing! BAM!!

This morning, I was able to get up and workout. I had enough energy, on a Monday, to do it. That hasn't happened in a WHILE! And I got on the scale.

And it said 178.6.

Yeah, I lost 6.4 pounds since Friday.

So either there was some water weight or I was bloated or I just ate AWESOME or something but yeah I was SOO happy to see that number go down so drastically! And it made eating healthy over the weekend SO worth it!!

I saw this on Facebook from a fellow Turbo addict/Beachbody Coach and loved it!! I've heard of the "jar" concept where you put money in one jar, and then as you lose weight you move the money to the other jar. With this concept though, you put in a motivational quote for each pound you want to lose. And as you lose a pound, you move it to the other jar. And on days you don't feel like working out, you read the inspiration in the "pounds lost" jar. What a good idea right?!

One thing I have noticed over the last few days is that I am hungry. Like all the time. I know on days that I lift weights I feel hungrier, and I lifted today & Saturday so maybe that's why? It's been slightly hard though - thinking you are hungry and telling yourself to ignore it is WAY harder than I remember! But it's ok. Seeing that lower number this morning was TOTALLY worth it!

Speaking of lower number. I have a new goal. So my highest all time weight was 292. January 1, 2012 I was 252. So I lost 40 through cutting out soda over a 1.5 year span. I want to ultimately get to half my original weight - so 146. But before that, I want to get to 152. 100 pounds lost since starting weight watchers & tracking my calories, since adding Turbo to my life. And even though those 2 numbers are super close, it'll give me 2 different things to celebrate! If I lose a consistent 2 pounds per week, that puts me at 152 on July 29. I can TOTALLY do that!! Just need to listen to my body and push it in my workouts, and acknowledge when I am hungry so that I don't "try to wait" and go nuts on calories when I do eat. And then I'll give myself another month to lose the other 6 pounds since those last few can be stubborn! I'm excited to have a goal. And I'm excited to see what I look like at 146 pounds - at half my weight. That's a LOW number. And I can't WAIT to see it on my scale!!

Extension Progress

Last Thursday I got my extensions tightened. Again. My hair grows SO fast - which is nice, except I have to get my extensions tightened more often than the "average" person. This time was the first time that we took the extensions all the way out and then put them back in "from scratch". Which means this was the first time I got to see how long my hair is getting!!

Definitely making progress - I can TOTALLY tell it's growing!

On the left it was straightened, on the right it's round brushed so the difference isn't QUITE as dramatic. The left was the day I got them put in

And a pic yesterday with them in - they are a little longer this month because of where we put them! LOVING it!

Like I said last month, I am ready for them to be out {mostly for financial reasons} but for now, I am LOVING how long my hair is and that I didn't have to wait for it to grow!