*****I found this post that I wrote on June 5th but never posted. I liked it too much to not post, so just imagine you are reading this almost 2 weeks ago.*****
Recently, I posted that Jake received his Living Ordinance Temple Recommend and that he would be receiving his endowment next Saturday at Provo Temple. Still so stinkin' excited I can barely see straight.
What I didn't realize was that because I also will be performing a Living Ordinance when we get sealed, I needed a new recommend and needed to meet with the Stake & my Bishop as well. I talked to my Bishop last Sunday and we got an interview scheduled for last night at 7:30.
I got home from work, made dinner and did dishes {we refer to it as finding the sink, since our sink will get so buried under the dishes you can't tell there is even a sink there} and then went to my interview.
We started out talking about how excited we are that Jake is ready for this, and the little things I can do to help prepare him the next week. We also talked about a pamphlet the Bishop would like him to read before his interview with the Stake this Sunday, which I already have so I just said I would have Jake read mine so that the Bishop could keep the copy he had. And then we had the interview.
When I had my recommend interview almost 2 years ago to receive my own endowment, I just remember feeling so at peace. So calm. And SOOOO joyful that I could say "yes" to all of the questions that were asked {except of course for the few that you say "no" to haha}. I came out and just felt absolute joy. It was an amazing experience.
So this time, I kept reminding myself of that and was trying to get back in that mind sight of how happy I am that I can say "yes" to the questions asked. But instead, all I could think about was how amazing I feel knowing that Jake said "yes" to those questions.
Each and every question, that's all I could think about.
The questions are things like "Do you have a testimony of the Savior?" "Do you have a testimony of the Restoration of the Gospel?" "Do you honor and sustain President Thomas S Monson as Prophet?" - stuff like that. Nothing earth shattering. And yet, Jake said yes to every single question.
I was seriously holding back tears at one point, realizing Jake said yes to all of those things. I am SO proud of him, of the man he is. He has changed a LOT since we met, but it's all in the best ways. All of the things I liked about him that I hoped would never change are exactly the same. He's the same guy I married but better. I don't know how to explain it. It's amazing to know that he can say yes to all of those things.
Jake, I am so proud of you. I love you so much!
Monday, June 17, 2013
Week 10 {and a half} - a lime
So I will be 11 weeks on Thursday, so I figured I should post my 10 week post pretty quick haha. This week, I feel pretty yucky. There are times I don't, but usually when I am awake I don't feel great. Jake & I have decided that means that's when the baby is awake haha. Fortunately, the baby "slept" really good during Jake's session so I didn't feel sick at all while we were at the temple. I'll make a separate post about that though - just gotta get around to it!
My clothes are fitting pretty tight, but I don't know if maternity stuff would fit. Gotta love that awkward phase haha. Food aversions are getting SO much worse - I pretty much just don't like food right now haha. I am trying to eat as much protein as I can stomach but nothing sounds good, like ever. That's CRAZY for me!
I really hadn't thrown up very many times until the last week - I've thrown up 4 times in a week. Definitely getting sicker. And you'd better believe every single time I throw up I sit there and say, out loud, "I love you little lime/peanut/bean" {whatever name comes to mind haha}. Every time I get whiny about feeling hot or sick or tired, Jake always reminds me how bad I wanted this and he's right - I wanted this. All of it.
Being sick this late at the end of my first trimester actually feels like a blessing. I read an article last night that Cornell published after reviewing over 80,000 pregnancies that when you are sick, there is virtually no chance of miscarriage. The article said morning sickness should really be called pregnancy insurance. And that makes me feel SOO much better, now that we've told the world we are having a baby. I'd hate to have something happen to our little lime right now. But I felt so strongly a few weeks ago that'd be fine, and I'm getting sicker, so I'm taking that as little lime is here to stay.
I keep forgetting that pregnancy doesn't last forever. At some point, I will feel like me again - I will have energy again, I will like food again haha. And when that point comes, we'll have our addition here with us. I can't wait for that!!!
I have been "replaced" at the bank haha. Leah, one of our tellers we already had, is going to be the new Vault Teller and Lindsey's New Accounts backup and Angie's manager backup. So now, we are hiring to replace Leah's current shift, which is working in the afternoons and Saturdays. As soon as that happens, Leah is officially taking over my job and I get to go to part time, just working 5 hours a day Monday through Friday. I will work from 9-2. And oh you'd better believe I am STOKED for that!! The bank just needs to finish interviews and then train the new person and I can change over - should only be another month or so. WOOT!!!!
I have my 12 week appointment in 3 days, even though I will only be 11 weeks and 1 day. That's because I am pretty sure my due date changed, like I talked about after our ultrasound. But I get to see the little lime again!! Jake wanted to come but he has Camp Helaman this week {it's Scout Camp for the 16-17 year old boys} and I am VERY supportive of him going to that, so I will just record the ultrasound so that he can see everything when he gets back home. Only 3 more days until I can see my little lime again! YAY!!!
My clothes are fitting pretty tight, but I don't know if maternity stuff would fit. Gotta love that awkward phase haha. Food aversions are getting SO much worse - I pretty much just don't like food right now haha. I am trying to eat as much protein as I can stomach but nothing sounds good, like ever. That's CRAZY for me!
I really hadn't thrown up very many times until the last week - I've thrown up 4 times in a week. Definitely getting sicker. And you'd better believe every single time I throw up I sit there and say, out loud, "I love you little lime/peanut/bean" {whatever name comes to mind haha}. Every time I get whiny about feeling hot or sick or tired, Jake always reminds me how bad I wanted this and he's right - I wanted this. All of it.
Being sick this late at the end of my first trimester actually feels like a blessing. I read an article last night that Cornell published after reviewing over 80,000 pregnancies that when you are sick, there is virtually no chance of miscarriage. The article said morning sickness should really be called pregnancy insurance. And that makes me feel SOO much better, now that we've told the world we are having a baby. I'd hate to have something happen to our little lime right now. But I felt so strongly a few weeks ago that'd be fine, and I'm getting sicker, so I'm taking that as little lime is here to stay.
I keep forgetting that pregnancy doesn't last forever. At some point, I will feel like me again - I will have energy again, I will like food again haha. And when that point comes, we'll have our addition here with us. I can't wait for that!!!
I have been "replaced" at the bank haha. Leah, one of our tellers we already had, is going to be the new Vault Teller and Lindsey's New Accounts backup and Angie's manager backup. So now, we are hiring to replace Leah's current shift, which is working in the afternoons and Saturdays. As soon as that happens, Leah is officially taking over my job and I get to go to part time, just working 5 hours a day Monday through Friday. I will work from 9-2. And oh you'd better believe I am STOKED for that!! The bank just needs to finish interviews and then train the new person and I can change over - should only be another month or so. WOOT!!!!
I have my 12 week appointment in 3 days, even though I will only be 11 weeks and 1 day. That's because I am pretty sure my due date changed, like I talked about after our ultrasound. But I get to see the little lime again!! Jake wanted to come but he has Camp Helaman this week {it's Scout Camp for the 16-17 year old boys} and I am VERY supportive of him going to that, so I will just record the ultrasound so that he can see everything when he gets back home. Only 3 more days until I can see my little lime again! YAY!!!
Sunday, June 16, 2013
This one's for you, baby
It's June 7, the day before my half marathon.
After I finished my first half marathon at the end of October last year, I knew I wanted to do another one. I picked this one, just because it was a similar course, and registered the same day I finished my last race. Sore, blistered and exhausted, I knew I wanted to do it again.
I had an awesome friend tell me she wanted to do one with me, but was trying to get pregnant and was worried about what happened if she got pregnant before the race. I told her that we were trying too and that we could just be prego ladies doing it together! What she DIDN'T tell me was that she was already pregnant, or pretty dang close at the time, so now she is too far along to do this race with me. Athina, we will do a race together after we have our babies :)
When we were in St George at the end of March, I had this feeling that we might get pregnant soon and that I'd be able to do my half marathon knowing I was pregnant. I had this image in my head of wearing Jake's GoPro and filming the whole thing as I talk to the baby through the whole thing about how awesome we are for doing a half marathon. And that feeling of knowing that even though I am pregnant, I did a half marathon.
And I have NOT prepared for this half marathon in the least. And I think that is because I just knew I'd be pregnant and I wouldn't be running. I don't know how else to explain it, but I JUST KNEW I would be pregnant before this race happened. And I am! Thank heavens haha because there is no way I could jog 13.1 miles. I am ok with not setting a PR if I am pregnant, but if I wasn't pregnant and was just too lazy to train and got a slower time than last time I would be mad at myself.
I've had a few people express concern over me doing my half even though I am pregnant. First off, I am only 9/10 weeks pregnant {depends if you go off of original due date or about to be changed due date} - it's not like I am 39 weeks and ready to pop any second. Second, I plan to walk the ENTIRE thing. Who can't walk 13 miles? It isn't a race for me. I'd LIKE to be done in 4 hours so that I can get a medal. That is the equivalent of walking at a 3.3 on the treadmill. I KNOW I can do that. That's not fast at all. Third, I got my nurse midwives approval. And last but certainly not least, because I am a different person than I was 2 years ago and my baby is NEVER going to know the old me.
The me that couldn't walk up a flight of stairs without feeling winded.
The me that couldn't tie my shoes without breaking a slight sweat.
The me that didn't own a pair of walking/running shoes.
The me that couldn't buy clothes in a "regular" clothing store.
The me that Jake couldn't fit his arms around when he'd give me a hug.
The me that would eat an entire pizza by myself and still kinda be hungry.
The me that hated myself.
This baby is going to know the NEW me.
The me that loves Turbo, more than almost anything in the world.
The me that has a slight addiction to new, florescent Nikes.
The me that could knock back a bag of carrots and a container of hummus and not realize it.
The me that wears single digit pants.
The me that will turn on music and randomly dance around the kitchen while cooking.
The me that will be playing right along side them in the park.
The me that loves this person I've become.
Goal is to complete it as close to 3 hours as possible. My last half, I did it in 2 hours 35 minutes. And that was when I was pretty close to the best shape of my life. So 3 hours is only 25 minutes slower, and I am not in as great of shape right now {sleep deprivation > desire to exercise} and I'm pregnant. I'll be thrilled with 3 hours!
Pictures to come soon!! :)
After I finished my first half marathon at the end of October last year, I knew I wanted to do another one. I picked this one, just because it was a similar course, and registered the same day I finished my last race. Sore, blistered and exhausted, I knew I wanted to do it again.
I had an awesome friend tell me she wanted to do one with me, but was trying to get pregnant and was worried about what happened if she got pregnant before the race. I told her that we were trying too and that we could just be prego ladies doing it together! What she DIDN'T tell me was that she was already pregnant, or pretty dang close at the time, so now she is too far along to do this race with me. Athina, we will do a race together after we have our babies :)
When we were in St George at the end of March, I had this feeling that we might get pregnant soon and that I'd be able to do my half marathon knowing I was pregnant. I had this image in my head of wearing Jake's GoPro and filming the whole thing as I talk to the baby through the whole thing about how awesome we are for doing a half marathon. And that feeling of knowing that even though I am pregnant, I did a half marathon.
And I have NOT prepared for this half marathon in the least. And I think that is because I just knew I'd be pregnant and I wouldn't be running. I don't know how else to explain it, but I JUST KNEW I would be pregnant before this race happened. And I am! Thank heavens haha because there is no way I could jog 13.1 miles. I am ok with not setting a PR if I am pregnant, but if I wasn't pregnant and was just too lazy to train and got a slower time than last time I would be mad at myself.
I've had a few people express concern over me doing my half even though I am pregnant. First off, I am only 9/10 weeks pregnant {depends if you go off of original due date or about to be changed due date} - it's not like I am 39 weeks and ready to pop any second. Second, I plan to walk the ENTIRE thing. Who can't walk 13 miles? It isn't a race for me. I'd LIKE to be done in 4 hours so that I can get a medal. That is the equivalent of walking at a 3.3 on the treadmill. I KNOW I can do that. That's not fast at all. Third, I got my nurse midwives approval. And last but certainly not least, because I am a different person than I was 2 years ago and my baby is NEVER going to know the old me.
The me that couldn't walk up a flight of stairs without feeling winded.
The me that couldn't tie my shoes without breaking a slight sweat.
The me that didn't own a pair of walking/running shoes.
The me that couldn't buy clothes in a "regular" clothing store.
The me that Jake couldn't fit his arms around when he'd give me a hug.
The me that would eat an entire pizza by myself and still kinda be hungry.
The me that hated myself.
This baby is going to know the NEW me.
The me that loves Turbo, more than almost anything in the world.
The me that has a slight addiction to new, florescent Nikes.
The me that could knock back a bag of carrots and a container of hummus and not realize it.
The me that wears single digit pants.
The me that will turn on music and randomly dance around the kitchen while cooking.
The me that will be playing right along side them in the park.
The me that loves this person I've become.
Goal is to complete it as close to 3 hours as possible. My last half, I did it in 2 hours 35 minutes. And that was when I was pretty close to the best shape of my life. So 3 hours is only 25 minutes slower, and I am not in as great of shape right now {sleep deprivation > desire to exercise} and I'm pregnant. I'll be thrilled with 3 hours!
Pictures to come soon!! :)
Ultrasound!
Ok I don't know if it's because I have no energy, or if it's because I know no one will see this for a few weeks, but I am having a WAY hard time blogging about the pregnancy! And that's SO bad - I want to remember all this stuff!!
Last Thursday, I had my ultrasound down at the hospital. So to preface, at my 8 week appointment, my midwife had mentioned she wanted me to go have one done at the hospital because when she did one topically, we couldn't see the baby. Said it was nothing to worry about. Which translates into Ashley being worried. I called the hospital to schedule the interview, and they asked if something was wrong with the pregnancy. "UH no... I don't think so? My doctor just wants me to have one?"
So Jake & I get to the hospital for the ultrasound and while checking in, we got asked if everything was ok in the pregnancy. Now, I am freaking out. We said yes, our doctor just wanted us to get one. We waited to go back to our room and then when the tech came to get us, he asked us the same question. GEEZ YES I SURE HOPE EVERYTHING IS OK!!!
They wanted to do an ultrasound topically and then if they couldn't see anything do a vaginal ultrasound. To do a topical ultrasound, you have to have a full bladder. If you know me, you know that I ALWAYS have to pee, even before I was pregnant. So having to intentionally hold it was absolute torture. The car ride down was torture. Sitting in the waiting room by the bathroom was torture. I was dying. So they do the topical ultrasound and can't really see anything. He thought he could see the baby, but wanted to check vaginally just to be safe. Which meant I got to go pee. Oh I was relieved {literally}!
I changed into the hospital gown and came back in the room and got all situated. The tech said he was going to look to make sure everything was in place, like ovaries and stuff, and then we'd look at the baby. Jake was absolutely fascinated watching the screen, which I loved. I was freaking out, so I just watched his face looking at the screen. And then, they saw the baby.
And I looked at the screen, and I could tell where the head was. Normally, I feel like I have no idea what I am looking at in ultrasound pictures but I totally could see it! He/she is very small, but there is definitely someone in there! It was so good to see them! They're little heart rate was around 168 BPM, which I thought was CRAZY - that's SO fast! But the tech said that's perfectly normal and that's where they want it to be!
The "bad" news is that my crown rump measurement {from the top of the baby's head to his/her little bum} is showing I was 8 weeks 1 day, when I thought I was 8 weeks 6 days. So I think that means my due date is getting pushed back by 5 days. LAME SAUCE! So I did week 8 all over again haha. But there is DEFINITELY someone in there! YAY!!!
After we left the hospital, Jake text his mom and I text my mom and sisters the picture from the ultrasound to let everyone know there really is a little someone in there. And then we went to Chili's for dinner with a gift card we got for Jake's birthday. Dinner out is always nice, especially when it's free. What a great way to celebrate our first ultrasound!!
Last Thursday, I had my ultrasound down at the hospital. So to preface, at my 8 week appointment, my midwife had mentioned she wanted me to go have one done at the hospital because when she did one topically, we couldn't see the baby. Said it was nothing to worry about. Which translates into Ashley being worried. I called the hospital to schedule the interview, and they asked if something was wrong with the pregnancy. "UH no... I don't think so? My doctor just wants me to have one?"
So Jake & I get to the hospital for the ultrasound and while checking in, we got asked if everything was ok in the pregnancy. Now, I am freaking out. We said yes, our doctor just wanted us to get one. We waited to go back to our room and then when the tech came to get us, he asked us the same question. GEEZ YES I SURE HOPE EVERYTHING IS OK!!!
They wanted to do an ultrasound topically and then if they couldn't see anything do a vaginal ultrasound. To do a topical ultrasound, you have to have a full bladder. If you know me, you know that I ALWAYS have to pee, even before I was pregnant. So having to intentionally hold it was absolute torture. The car ride down was torture. Sitting in the waiting room by the bathroom was torture. I was dying. So they do the topical ultrasound and can't really see anything. He thought he could see the baby, but wanted to check vaginally just to be safe. Which meant I got to go pee. Oh I was relieved {literally}!
I changed into the hospital gown and came back in the room and got all situated. The tech said he was going to look to make sure everything was in place, like ovaries and stuff, and then we'd look at the baby. Jake was absolutely fascinated watching the screen, which I loved. I was freaking out, so I just watched his face looking at the screen. And then, they saw the baby.
And I looked at the screen, and I could tell where the head was. Normally, I feel like I have no idea what I am looking at in ultrasound pictures but I totally could see it! He/she is very small, but there is definitely someone in there! It was so good to see them! They're little heart rate was around 168 BPM, which I thought was CRAZY - that's SO fast! But the tech said that's perfectly normal and that's where they want it to be!
The "bad" news is that my crown rump measurement {from the top of the baby's head to his/her little bum} is showing I was 8 weeks 1 day, when I thought I was 8 weeks 6 days. So I think that means my due date is getting pushed back by 5 days. LAME SAUCE! So I did week 8 all over again haha. But there is DEFINITELY someone in there! YAY!!!
After we left the hospital, Jake text his mom and I text my mom and sisters the picture from the ultrasound to let everyone know there really is a little someone in there. And then we went to Chili's for dinner with a gift card we got for Jake's birthday. Dinner out is always nice, especially when it's free. What a great way to celebrate our first ultrasound!!
Week 8 {and a half} - a green olive
Today is May 28. Last Thursday {May 23} marked my 8 week mark, but I have totally dropped the ball on blogging - sorry!!
I went to my 8 week appointment last week!! First baby appointment. WOOT! I got lost at the hospital trying to find my doctor's office and I ended up walking all over the entire hospital, which wouldn't be so bad except I was wearing 4.5 inch heels. Yep I won't be doing THAT again haha. I finally found my doctor's office, got checked in, and waited for them to call me back. They got me on the scale and did blood pressure and then had me go into my room and change into a hospital gown. I read in an email I get each day to expect that, so I wasn't surprised.
One of the midwives came in along with a midwife in training. I can't remember if I told ya'll or not but I am meeting with a midwife throughout the pregnancy. They basically did a glorified pap smear and asked me some questions about how I am feeling, and then asked me if I had any questions. Um yes, lots. I asked about doing Turbo {I did it two weeks ago and was cramping WAY bad afterwards - they said no more of that}, on working out in general {got the green light - gonna be doing lots of the elliptical!}, on my maximum heart rate {they didn't say - just listen to my body}, if I can still do my half marathon in 2 weeks {yep, just be careful} and if I can still go to Girls Camp {yep, just be careful and stay hydrated}. After I was done, they gave me a huge bag full of samples of prenatal vitamins and informational pamphlets and magazines and catalogues for baby stuff. And I got to get my blood drawn. After my whole platelet incident, I really am not a fan of getting my blood drawn. But the tech did great and only had to wiggle the needle once to get blood to come out and then I was on my way back to work. 3 hour long lunch. WHOOPS! From now on, my appointments will all be first thing in the morning haha.
They tried to do an ultra sound but the baby is too little to see anything. The midwife said that was totally normal and not to be worried, but it worried me. Even though she SPECIFICALLY said not to worry. They want to me to go to AF and do a vaginal ultrasound so they can see the baby that way {they think he/she is hiding behind my pelvic bone and that's why we couldn't see them topically}. I am playing phone tag with AF hospital trying to get that scheduled - hopefully soon because I want to see our little bean!!
I've told a few more people that we are expecting - mostly people in the ward. Still trying to get everyone to keep it on the down low though. We'll see how long that lasts. I told my boss a while ago, as I mentioned, and they have decided to hire my replacement already so that means it is really coming out at the bank that I am pregnant, since people are asking where I am going, and I'm saying I am not leaving for 7 months... Yeah you do the math on that one haha.
This morning was the first time I've thrown up. Definitely felt nauseous, but didn't throw up until this morning. Threw up twice actually. And I felt so much better after each time. Someone told me it's not like the flu - you don't feel better after you throw up when you're pregnant but I don't agree. I DEFINTELY don't want to eat the healthy stuff I was wanting to eat today though {broccoli with lunch and an apple as a snack} but I am going to try to eat some broccoli at dinner. And I am trying to eat as much protein as I can, instead of all the carbs that I want to eat. It's just getting tough - chicken and beef sound gross, so I pretty much just eat dairy. Like lots of cheese - cheese sticks are my new best friend. And milk. I am drinking SOOO much milk everyday! I didn't dislike milk before I was pregnant, but it ALWAYS sounds good now. And Orange Juice sounds amazing too - I've been drinking a lot of that too. And I didn't drink my calories before I got pregnant, so that's been weird having a huge chunk of my calories for the day go out the window real quick, but hey if it's what sounds good I'm going with it.
The only meat that sounds good is Café Rio pork. I could eat that 3 meals a day. Ok maybe not really. But really. I could eat it a LOT.
I like Spaghettio's lately, and Mini Ravioli from Chef Boyardee {my sister used to call them "pillows" when we were little}. That's my lunch of choice lately.
I still don't really like the thought of sugar, ice cream doesn't sound good or chocolate or anything. That is INSANE for me. I REALLY like sugar. I'd just much rather have a glass of OJ or some crackers haha.
I have been trying to sleep on my side and that'd interesting haha. I would much rather sleep on my tummy or my back but I am making it work because this little bean is worth it!
It doesn't feel quite real yet. So far I just feel sick with a secret that I don't want to tell in case something goes wrong. I think the ultrasound is the big ticket to helping this feel more real. Can't wait for that!!
Can't remember what I've told ya'll {seriously I'm surprised I remember my own name these days} but Jake & I both think it's a boy. And as much as I want the baby to be healthy and just feel overjoyed that it IS a baby, we both are secretly hoping it's a boy. And now that I say that, where our kids can see someday, watch it be a girl. Wonderful child, if you ever read this, we wanted you and we are so happy you were born, regardless of if you're a boy or a girl {but seriously, you're dad REALLY wants you to be a boy!}
Can't wait to post how the ultra sound goes!
I went to my 8 week appointment last week!! First baby appointment. WOOT! I got lost at the hospital trying to find my doctor's office and I ended up walking all over the entire hospital, which wouldn't be so bad except I was wearing 4.5 inch heels. Yep I won't be doing THAT again haha. I finally found my doctor's office, got checked in, and waited for them to call me back. They got me on the scale and did blood pressure and then had me go into my room and change into a hospital gown. I read in an email I get each day to expect that, so I wasn't surprised.
One of the midwives came in along with a midwife in training. I can't remember if I told ya'll or not but I am meeting with a midwife throughout the pregnancy. They basically did a glorified pap smear and asked me some questions about how I am feeling, and then asked me if I had any questions. Um yes, lots. I asked about doing Turbo {I did it two weeks ago and was cramping WAY bad afterwards - they said no more of that}, on working out in general {got the green light - gonna be doing lots of the elliptical!}, on my maximum heart rate {they didn't say - just listen to my body}, if I can still do my half marathon in 2 weeks {yep, just be careful} and if I can still go to Girls Camp {yep, just be careful and stay hydrated}. After I was done, they gave me a huge bag full of samples of prenatal vitamins and informational pamphlets and magazines and catalogues for baby stuff. And I got to get my blood drawn. After my whole platelet incident, I really am not a fan of getting my blood drawn. But the tech did great and only had to wiggle the needle once to get blood to come out and then I was on my way back to work. 3 hour long lunch. WHOOPS! From now on, my appointments will all be first thing in the morning haha.
They tried to do an ultra sound but the baby is too little to see anything. The midwife said that was totally normal and not to be worried, but it worried me. Even though she SPECIFICALLY said not to worry. They want to me to go to AF and do a vaginal ultrasound so they can see the baby that way {they think he/she is hiding behind my pelvic bone and that's why we couldn't see them topically}. I am playing phone tag with AF hospital trying to get that scheduled - hopefully soon because I want to see our little bean!!
I've told a few more people that we are expecting - mostly people in the ward. Still trying to get everyone to keep it on the down low though. We'll see how long that lasts. I told my boss a while ago, as I mentioned, and they have decided to hire my replacement already so that means it is really coming out at the bank that I am pregnant, since people are asking where I am going, and I'm saying I am not leaving for 7 months... Yeah you do the math on that one haha.
This morning was the first time I've thrown up. Definitely felt nauseous, but didn't throw up until this morning. Threw up twice actually. And I felt so much better after each time. Someone told me it's not like the flu - you don't feel better after you throw up when you're pregnant but I don't agree. I DEFINTELY don't want to eat the healthy stuff I was wanting to eat today though {broccoli with lunch and an apple as a snack} but I am going to try to eat some broccoli at dinner. And I am trying to eat as much protein as I can, instead of all the carbs that I want to eat. It's just getting tough - chicken and beef sound gross, so I pretty much just eat dairy. Like lots of cheese - cheese sticks are my new best friend. And milk. I am drinking SOOO much milk everyday! I didn't dislike milk before I was pregnant, but it ALWAYS sounds good now. And Orange Juice sounds amazing too - I've been drinking a lot of that too. And I didn't drink my calories before I got pregnant, so that's been weird having a huge chunk of my calories for the day go out the window real quick, but hey if it's what sounds good I'm going with it.
The only meat that sounds good is Café Rio pork. I could eat that 3 meals a day. Ok maybe not really. But really. I could eat it a LOT.
I like Spaghettio's lately, and Mini Ravioli from Chef Boyardee {my sister used to call them "pillows" when we were little}. That's my lunch of choice lately.
I still don't really like the thought of sugar, ice cream doesn't sound good or chocolate or anything. That is INSANE for me. I REALLY like sugar. I'd just much rather have a glass of OJ or some crackers haha.
I have been trying to sleep on my side and that'd interesting haha. I would much rather sleep on my tummy or my back but I am making it work because this little bean is worth it!
It doesn't feel quite real yet. So far I just feel sick with a secret that I don't want to tell in case something goes wrong. I think the ultrasound is the big ticket to helping this feel more real. Can't wait for that!!
Can't remember what I've told ya'll {seriously I'm surprised I remember my own name these days} but Jake & I both think it's a boy. And as much as I want the baby to be healthy and just feel overjoyed that it IS a baby, we both are secretly hoping it's a boy. And now that I say that, where our kids can see someday, watch it be a girl. Wonderful child, if you ever read this, we wanted you and we are so happy you were born, regardless of if you're a boy or a girl {but seriously, you're dad REALLY wants you to be a boy!}
Can't wait to post how the ultra sound goes!
Just Remember
Today is May 22, tomorrow marks 8 weeks. And I am feeling that morning sickness thing that is so commonly associated with pregnancy. I still haven't thrown up, but yesterday I was so sick that I didn't get out of bed until around 4 PM and then I just moved to the couch, where I stayed until about 8:30 when I MADE myself get up and go to the grocery store and buy some food.
Last night Jake noticed I have a little fever and that kinda got me thinking - we have a flu going around our neighborhood and I wonder if maybe I caught part of that and that's why I felt so sick yesterday? Or maybe I am just really getting hit with morning sickness. Either way, I am ok with it because this is what I wanted. I want to have morning sickness, especially since it means that in a few months I'll have a precious little one to make it all worth it. This won't last forever.
It made me think of a verse from my favorite hymn, "Come come ye saints." The second verse says:
Last night Jake noticed I have a little fever and that kinda got me thinking - we have a flu going around our neighborhood and I wonder if maybe I caught part of that and that's why I felt so sick yesterday? Or maybe I am just really getting hit with morning sickness. Either way, I am ok with it because this is what I wanted. I want to have morning sickness, especially since it means that in a few months I'll have a precious little one to make it all worth it. This won't last forever.
It made me think of a verse from my favorite hymn, "Come come ye saints." The second verse says:
Why should we mourn
Or think our lot is hard?
Tis not so,
All is right.
Why should we think
To earn a great reward
If we now
shun the fight?
Gird up your loins
Fresh courage take
Our God will never
Us forsake
And soon we'll have
This tale to Tell
All is well
All is well.
I get to go through morning sickness with modern medicine. I CAN go to a doctor and say I can't handle this anymore - please give me medicine. I'm just choosing to try to do it without medicine. I AM PREGNANT!! I have wanted this for YEARS! I want that "great reward" of a baby, I can't "shun the fight" now. It'll all be worth it. Just gotta focus on how wonderful life will be in January :)
The biggest thing that has me worried right now is I don't feel like working anymore, because I feel so sick. But we want me to work until the very end so that we can save as much money as possible before the baby gets here. That may mean I need to ask a doctor for some medicine. Maybe I'll bring that up tomorrow at my appointment. I'll be sure to post how my 8 week appointment goes - first doctors appointment!!!
Week 7
As of today {May 16}, I am officially at 7 weeks. And I can't begin to count all the emotions I am feeling haha. I feel like a one woman roller coaster. I am so worried about a miscarriage, and I'm so excited to quit my job so I can stay home, and I'm so nervous to be a mom, and I'm irritable more than normal and it's just been crazy being in my head, let alone being around me.
I still haven't thrown up. Not once. Which I am totally loving, don't get me wrong. I just feel like something isn't right since I'm not sick all the time? But I read in "What to expect when you're expecting" that only a little more than half of women experience that. So less than half don't get sick at all. Made me feel better! And according to old wives tales, having an easy pregnancy means I am having a boy. I am totally ok with that :)
A lot of the food I used to like sounds gross. Like apples. I eat an apple every single day, and have for over a year. But now, they sound so gross. Berries don't sound bad. Vegetables in general sound disgusting. Chicken sounds gross. Chips sounds awesome. Crackers sound awesome. I like salty things. Sugar doesn't sound good but I've been eating it anyway. That's gotta stop haha. Water doesn't sound good at all. It doesn't taste good. And I drink close to a gallon every single day before. So that's WAY weird that I'm not drinking as much as before.
I have felt the queasiness coming once or twice but I usually just eat something and feel fine afterwards. Sometimes at night I can feel it, and I just try to sleep through it. Like I said, so far haven't thrown up. Awesome.
I've noticed that my clothes are fitting different - my pants particularly. My garment bottoms aren't fitting quite like they used to. Again, I totally didn't think I would experience that by this point. I'm not showing or anything! But according to Google & my pregnancy bible "What to expect", it's normal. Weird. I've still been able to wear my same clothes, no maternity things yet. But I can tell they don't fit quite right. Which could be from the sugar and junk I've been eating haha.
Pregnancy brain is a real thing. I locked the keys to the vault inside the vault last night at work, and it took me until this morning to realize that was the last place I saw them. I can't remember things that normally would come right to me. That's very hard for me - I don't usually write things down. I write my To-Do List down, but that's it. Now, I need to write EVERYTHING down or I will forget. EVERYTHING needs to go on my To-Do List or it will be forgotten. Already. At week 7. AWESOME!
I am so irritated all the time. Not so much at family members - I get frustrated with dishes, and laundry, and work. Hopefully I can figure out how to make that better before I go nuts, or before I blow up at people haha.
But I'm happy to be pregnant. OVERJOYED!!
I still haven't thrown up. Not once. Which I am totally loving, don't get me wrong. I just feel like something isn't right since I'm not sick all the time? But I read in "What to expect when you're expecting" that only a little more than half of women experience that. So less than half don't get sick at all. Made me feel better! And according to old wives tales, having an easy pregnancy means I am having a boy. I am totally ok with that :)
A lot of the food I used to like sounds gross. Like apples. I eat an apple every single day, and have for over a year. But now, they sound so gross. Berries don't sound bad. Vegetables in general sound disgusting. Chicken sounds gross. Chips sounds awesome. Crackers sound awesome. I like salty things. Sugar doesn't sound good but I've been eating it anyway. That's gotta stop haha. Water doesn't sound good at all. It doesn't taste good. And I drink close to a gallon every single day before. So that's WAY weird that I'm not drinking as much as before.
I have felt the queasiness coming once or twice but I usually just eat something and feel fine afterwards. Sometimes at night I can feel it, and I just try to sleep through it. Like I said, so far haven't thrown up. Awesome.
I've noticed that my clothes are fitting different - my pants particularly. My garment bottoms aren't fitting quite like they used to. Again, I totally didn't think I would experience that by this point. I'm not showing or anything! But according to Google & my pregnancy bible "What to expect", it's normal. Weird. I've still been able to wear my same clothes, no maternity things yet. But I can tell they don't fit quite right. Which could be from the sugar and junk I've been eating haha.
Pregnancy brain is a real thing. I locked the keys to the vault inside the vault last night at work, and it took me until this morning to realize that was the last place I saw them. I can't remember things that normally would come right to me. That's very hard for me - I don't usually write things down. I write my To-Do List down, but that's it. Now, I need to write EVERYTHING down or I will forget. EVERYTHING needs to go on my To-Do List or it will be forgotten. Already. At week 7. AWESOME!
I am so irritated all the time. Not so much at family members - I get frustrated with dishes, and laundry, and work. Hopefully I can figure out how to make that better before I go nuts, or before I blow up at people haha.
But I'm happy to be pregnant. OVERJOYED!!
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